IMPOSSIBLE = I'M POSSIBLE

I used to say IMPOSSIBLE during my adolescent age. When I was in my teenage year, I was scared to dream because for me my dream is impossible to achieve. I never dream to complete STPM, going to university, taking degree in Counselling, or being successful career woman someday. All I dream was to complete SPM. I used to envy those friends who aim to have great dream to achieve. I used to listen to their plan regarding with their future planning. All I do is just thinking “IMPOSSIBLE” and I just sit there without doing any plan for my future.

As time pass and now I’m 24 year olds. Looking back on those roads I have walk along this life. WOW!!! AMAZING is the only word I could use to represent my life. Along this journey, I achieve so much and I also lost some part of it. This is not about how much I gain or how much I lost. This is about what did I learn along this life. I never knew that I am the lucky one until today I finally appreciate what had belong to me all this time. I should feel grateful with my life. I shouldn’t let myself to say “IMPOSSIBLE” because there’s always “I’M POSSIBLE”.

Nothing is impossible because everything is possible. It was the individual to determine either to make it possible or to leave it impossible. As long as I believe and I faith in myself, I’ll never make myself to say “IMPOSSIBLE”. This is my life and I only have one life. If I die now, I will never been given second chance to repeat this life again. Why should I underestimate myself by thinking “IMPOSSIBLE” when I did not even give myself a chance to try? I’ll walk this through because I believe in every dark sky or heavy rain, there’s always lay the beautiful rainbow beyond it.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

Uncertainty seem to trouble my mind right this moment. I feel melancholy knowing that I should inform JPA as soon as possible regarding with my status now. Why I’m feeling this way when I suppose to feel happy doing this informing letter to JPA. The faster I inform them, the faster I will settle down with my career. Then, I won’t worry about my career and my future. It is because I will be leaving my hometown? I wish I have enough time before moving to KL. I hope to settle everything before I leave this town. That’s all I asked for because I want to live my life to the fullest.

Some might question my action and my decision but I don’t want keep on leaving in regret. I know I did lots of crazy things and some of it doesn’t make sense. But do I care much what other will think about me. I’m sick being coward and hiding from my own shadow. I’m just being me, myself and I. Live my life to the fullest was my motto. I know what is good and what is bad. I know there are certain things I shouldn’t carry on and there are things I must let go. All I ask is to have a simple life. That’s all I wanted from this life.

I’m not perfect and I commit sins. I hurt peoples and I’ll make them cry. I’m bad yet I know the reason behind my action. I’ll apologize if I did wrongs. They can stop anything in my life but not what’s lay within my heart. They can hate me but they can’t take away the real me. My rule is simple to live life to the fullest and don’t leave in regret. I do what I want, I do what’s make me happy, I’ll keep on doing what’s make me smile, I’ll make sure people I love living in bliss because when the day I die, I won’t go in regret. I’ll keep on living my life to the fullest as long as I am still alive.